Friday, September 14, 2007
It was sabotage.
But only subconsciously. I did it because being in the middle of nowhere for an indefinite amount of time is not where I want to be at this point in my life. Before my heart settled down, I was ready to dive into anything and everything. I needed that constant change because I guess in a way that gives my heart more of a chance to find 'the one'. I took for granted that my family and long-time friends would always be there to pick me up from the airport upon my return. But then you find the one and you begin to appreciate everyone in your life and you begin to reign in your leaps and bounds. You realize there's a greater benefit to being close to the people you love than there is to taking greater and greater chances with your career. I don't know what I want at this point, but I know who at least.