Lately I've been feeling all of the above colliding into one. Packing old things, going through keepsakes from high school and university, seeing photos of some ex's, figuring out what I need to do now...planning how certain things should be executed on my behalf while I'm gone. Shit, it's a mess. And what's worse is that I'm stuck writing this on one of those ergonomic keyboards because I shipped my iMac today. The one with the normal rectangular keyboards. Rectangular... that looks like a funny word. Rect-angular. If someone designed that word to have the word angular following the letters r-e-c-t, then what is "rect-" supposed to mean? Or does the angular bit give it meaning? And are words "designed"? I guess not really since I'm sure lexicographers don't sit there with the alphabet and see what they can come up with like an artist with paints. I digress.
I've moved so much just within the last 7 years of my life but the moves that really have an impact on me are the ones where I have to pack my life. My lives. The past ones and future ones. Vacation-packing makes me think about my immediate needs and being able to fulfill them while still being minimalistic and non-sentimental. The trip I prepare to embark on in 2 days asked more of me. The past few days of packing involved packing my life in O town, picking out the essentials while keeping a few superfluous personal things on hand because I'll be very far away in both time and geographical space and to be that far with no sentimental knick-knacks to look at makes the idea of this trip seem quite empty.
Going back to the talk about seeing photos of ex's, it's been an interesting.. journey, I guess you could say. It's just weird looking at me alongside another guy. The smile isn't quite as bright. The guy I'm glad to say is a part of history. But when I think about it, my life wouldn't be where it is without those guys. Everyone you meet in life serves a purpose to your journey in life. Some are just there to point out a direction for you. And of course the others walk with you to hold a light for you. Taking a step back to look at the past, present, and future of your life always gives you an interesting view.