Saturday, January 26, 2008

Bipolar

The past week I've gone from feeling aggravated by him and then back to being smitten. Why the aggravation? Can I just blame the hormones? OK, that's cheap. Perhaps it's a temporary loss of patience: Patience that he seems to always have for me. Every time I pull out the bottle of olive oil from the cabinet, I am reminded of how patient and forgiving he is. He'd rather take the blame for something inane than to bicker about it. I don't know why he does it. I guess he loves me or something. I guess I love him too.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Memory Lane

So I went back in time today. Went through old chats and emails circa the time we just started dating and yeah, my feelings have changed. They've changed from being smitten by this new-found love to the feeling of an old, life-long friendship with this person you adored all your childhood and you're just completely loving the fact that you are still best friends with this person and still talk to this person. It's marvelous. Marvelous. That's the first I've heard of that word in a long time. It's also been too long of a time since I said I love you.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Remember

Remember when you said you didn't know how much you could give?
Remember when you said you didn't want to let me down?
Remember when neither of us had any expectations?

Now see me terrified of being the unsure one.
Now see me letting you down.
Now see me falling short of your expectations.

I'm sorry that I'm not stronger.
I'm sorry that I let you down.
I'm sorry that I'm not the amazing person you see me as.

But remember that I'd give you the world if I could.
But remember that I just want to be your only sunshine.
But remember that all I expect is that you know I love you.